A recount of voting ballots nationwide was being done by elite units of the National Guard by early Sun. morning 8 Nov. To prevent fraud official ballots had been printed with an invisible, unbreakable code watermark and registered on a Quantum Blockchain System.
As of this writing, in five states 14 million ballots had been put through a laser scanner – 78% of which failed because there was no watermark to verify the ballot. Of those that failed 100% had checked for Biden.
An initial test showed that according to water marks on validated ballots fed into the Quantum Computer, Trump won re-election by over 80% of the legal ballot cast. The final validated vote tallied in that test: Trump 73.5 million votes to Biden’s 25.9 million – and that didn’t even account for Trump votes that people observed being tossed and never accounted for.
Interesting enough, those figures corresponded with the two men’s Twitter accounts: Trump had 88.8 million followers to Biden’s 16.6 million.
Using ‘infra red’ equipment that read which ballots were real, or fake the elite National Guardsmen had been deployed to the twelve targeted states of Alabama, Arizona, Pennsylvania, Colorado, Texas, Wisconsin, Tennessee, Washington, Virginia, Delaware, Illinois and Kentucky. In all nationwide, over 500 National Guardsmen were on guard over all ballot counting units.
There was much more to the tests for fraudulent voting. In addition to the watermark these official ballots also contained ink made of corn, which created an electronic radiation circuit ID that could trace the location of that ballot through GPS transmission. In other words, they could trace if the ballot was filled out by the person named on the ballot.
Dr Andy Kaufman describes the history of modern medicine and how it took over from more natural therapies in the nineteeth century, and continues all the way to today. What happened to the doctors who helped people to heal themselves, and who converted the medical system into a medical industry to make money and prevent healing and cures?
Watch this mind opening video and learn what happened…..
A book that will also help you understand a lot more about health, healing, sickness, illness, dis-ease is this book entitled:
“What Really Makes You Ill” by Dawn Lester and David Parker.
“An error does not become truth by reason of multiplied propagation, nor does truth become error because nobody sees it.” Mahatma Gandhi
The natural state of the human body is that of good health.
Yet it would appear to be rather difficult to maintain the body in the state of good health throughout a person’s entire lifetime.
Although illness may seem to be a common human experience, it can manifest in a variety of different forms and to varying degrees of severity; the common cold, for example, is self-limiting and short-lived, whereas many chronic conditions, such as rheumatoid arthritis, are considered to be incurable and lifelong.
It may be assumed from this that illness is largely unavoidable or is even an inevitable aspect of human life; but this would be a mistaken assumption.
Nevertheless, the fact that large numbers of people experience some form of illness during their lives raises some fundamental questions, not least of which is: why does it occur?
In other words, what really makes people ill? This is fully explained in our book.
Protesters in several California cities, including San Francisco, Huntington Beach, and Sacramento rallied on Friday, May 1st, with huge protests against Democrat Governor Gavin Newsom’s hyper restrictive coronavirus stay-at-home order.
In Sacramento, the state’s capital, a packed crowd of thousands of protesters faced off with lines of police officers in full riot gear.
According to The Guardian, “The California Highway Patrol (CHP) had announced that it would be barring protests at the Sacramento state capitol because of a lack of social distancing by participants at a previous rally, but protesters gathered on the steps of the building regardless, chanting ‘Whose house? Our house!’”
“Freedom! Freedom! Freedom!” chanted other Sacramento protesters, according to video footage recorded by California resident Joshua Coleman.
In Coleman’s video, a Marine veteran named Cordie Lee Williams can be seen speaking into a megaphone, challenging California police officers to “stand down.”
“In the face of tyranny, in the face of freedom, are you going to sit there in your riot gear against peaceful protesters?” asked Williams. “Or are you going to say, ‘you know what, it’s time to stand up for my country. Because I took an oath of office and it said, ‘I will defend all enemies, foreign and domestic.”
Williams continued, “You might lose your job, but I’d rather lose my job than lose my soul.
“What are you going to tell your little boy or your little girl tonight? That you took your baton and you crushed somebody’s skull, who was a mom? Is that what a tough guy does? That’s not what honor, courage, and commitment means in the Marine Corps.”
Documentary by award winning researcher Janet Ossebaard which reveals a lot of truth. Don’t miss this one.
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WARNING: This is a long and nuanced article, with at least one, perhaps two more articles to follow it. Please read it carefully, even read it twice before commenting.Reactive, egoic comments with an agenda of “I KNOW what’s REALLY happening and you’re an idiot because you don’t believe what I do” will be deleted.
I’m not going to waste a minute of time on arguing. Open-handed assessments along the lines of, “Based on my RESEARCH, this is what *I* personally FEEL is happening” are welcomed. Please provide intelligent intelligence
Something very unusual is happening around this CoronaVirus situation. Something we’ve never seen before in our lives. Governments are closing borders and telling people to stay at home or mandating lockdown type situations, some people are getting sick with the virus and some are dying, although very few “regular people” seem to be getting the virus while a VERY large number of celebrities and CEOs are being announced as having the virus or self-quarantining because they are concerned they might have it.
I can feel something much bigger underneath all of this, and my Inner Cynic, espousing “standard conspiracy theory” sees it as a ramp up towards martial law and the squashing of all of our remaining freedoms. I listen to and consider that jaded, highly skeptical part of my psyche, but I also have a deeper intuitive response that feels more like optimistic anticipation.
I live my life guided primarily by my intuition, AND I back up that intuition with logic whenever possible. We have three brains in our bodies: head, heart and belly brains, and I feel they must all be operating in balance for us to truly understand anything, especially anything as complex as the current events that are unfolding. Put very simply, Logic is the domain of the head brain, Love and connection is the domain of the heart brain, and Raw intuition is the domain of the belly brain. It’s much more intricate and interconnected than that, of course.
I urge you to stay connected to your heart and belly as you read these words, and avoid the temptation to retreat into a purely mental state of analysis. Let your body’s intuition and innate love guide you now, and throughout your life.
Rumors of “Cabal mass arrests” have been floated on the internet almost once per year for at least 20 years, making them increasingly hard to believe. New versions of those rumors are very active right now alongside the CoronaVirus media fear-frenzy that has people buying massive amounts of toilet paper, and even some food to go with it.
With regard to mass arrests, is this time any different from the false rumors of the past? It just might be, but the details of it are hard to believe for most people, especially if you’ve already been down the rabbit hole of conspiracy theories and concluded that the evil doers on this planet are too well entrenched into every strata of politics, banking, military, law-enforcement and entertainment to ever be eradicated. (My inner cynic welcomes you with a fist bump.)
Why are the details so hard to believe? Trigger warning… I’m just going to drop this on you before I explain it, but here’s the plot of the narrative that appears to be unfolding very rapidly as I type these words on March 17, 2020:
Good guys (aka White Hats) in military, law enforcement, government, and business banded together to create a plan to liberate the world from a Cabal of evil, satanic, mass-murdering pedophiles who hold the vast majority of the world’s wealth and power. They have been working on this plan for at least 20 years, possibly as far back as JFK’s presidency, and one of their major moves was purging Cabal members from the NSA so they could spy on all Cabal communications.
These “White Hats” asked Donald Trump to run for president of the U.S. so he could be the key player in implementing their master plan, including gaining control of the NSA. This group calls themselves “Q” and they began posting “intel drops” on the internet in October 2017 in order to wake up enough unaware people as to the true nature of the evil that infects humanity, and to have those people serve as information warriors to help awaken others.
Seriously? White Hats and Trump? Hard to believe, I know…
The Q movement appears to have been very, very successful. Q has become an internet phenomenon, with many adherents who call themselves Q-anons (because they are all anonymous), although it is often seen by “veterans of wokeness” as just another psyop meant to befuddle, distract and occupy the minds of the newly awakened. That was my automatic, inner cynic reaction to it when I first heard about it in 2018. I just dismissed it and kept on with my life and work.
However as the CV scare began ramping up faster and faster, I noticed more and more chatter amongst Qanons that the virus, which is theorized by them to have been created and released by “the deep state” / bad guys, that the narrative around the virus has been co-opted by POTUS (Trump) and Q in order to enact their master plan to arrest the Cabal, called “The Storm.” Their theory is that the virus containment efforts are being amplified in order to keep people out of public spaces and safely at home so that the Cabal can’t do any mass shootings or other nefarious misdeeds as a distraction or revenge.
I initially thought the story of “The Storm” happening under cover of the massive Corona Virus response was just a secondary layer of the psy-op. At the same time, I had an intuitive feeling that this needed my attention, so I started taking a deeper look, and I have seen a lot of EVIDENCE (not proof) that “The Plan” of these white-hats is underway.
The news is moving very fast right now, but since March 10th 2020, over 600 CGNJ and MS13 gang members have been arrested in the U.S., Saudia Arabia is making mass arrests, 20k-30k US troops are doing an “exercise” in Europe, Bill Gates stepped down from Microsoft and Berkshire boards, and government officials, celebrities, athletes and CEOs are “coming down with CV” at an alarmingly high rate, much higher than the regular populace… and much more.
All of these pieces of evidence help my head brain to connect with my gut intuition that something REAL is happening, and that it’s not just one more psy-op. I am currently very optimistic with a dash of healthy skepticism.
As for Trump, I don’t like his public persona (maybe he’s a great guy in private), but that is not relevant here at all. If “The Plan” is real and actually being implemented under cover of the CoronaVirus, I will be very happy. To finally put an end to human trafficking and child sacrifice on this planet will be the most impactful positive change that has occurred in our known history.
Actually eradicating the scourge of child sacrifice on our planet will have far-reaching energetic and “metaphysical” effects on every single human being, as well as on the astral realm around our planet. To do that topic justice will require much more writing, which I will do in a future article……….
Representative Adam Schiff’s behavior and his rabid attempts to impeach President Trump is motivated by self preservation. Many anticipate that the long awaited IG report by DOJ IG Horowitz (that will be released between today November 20, 2019 and December 11, 2019), will include criminal referrals for Schiff. Even though this may indeed be true, considering he has lied, betrayed his oath of office, leaked, and possibly orchestrated an elaborate covert surveillance sting on the president and or his staff, this is NOT what has Schiff “schiffing” his pants.
In January 2019, a second man was found dead in Ed Buck’s home in West Hollywood within a two year span. In fact, in July 2017, he was cleared of any liability for the death of 26-year-old gay male escort Gemelle Moore when his body was found in the same apartment as the victim in January 2019. The death was a result of an overdose of crystal methamphetamine.
In January 2019, the death of the second male revealed something very interesting. Apparently, investigators reopened the case last year after Moore’s friends and family raised concerns that his political connections might have contributed to the decision.
It was reported that Buck’s attorney, Seymour Amster, told NBC News that Buck wasn’t in custody and hadn’t been charged in connection with the man’s death. He said the man was a “longtime friend” of Buck’s who asked to come over.
Ed was reluctant, but the friend was insistent, so Ed allowed the friend to come over. A little while later the friend began exhibiting bizarre behavior and that prompted Buck to call 911.
Seymour Amster, told NBC News
Buck is a high-profile, millionaire Democratic benefactor who has contributed and bundled large amounts of cash to Democrats including Schiff, Hillary Clinton, Barack Obama, Kamala Harris, the list goes on and on.
It’s no secret that Ed Buck and Adam Schiff are very close friends. In fact, Schiff has invited Buck to many of his own parties and Schiff has attended many of Buck’s parties.
Schiff is known for throwing themed parties. In fact, his 50th birthday party had a Hawaiian theme. Schiff is pictured with one of the guests below.
Our exclusive source, a Democrat staffer, tells us that Patty, Schiff’s campaign manager/personal assistant/”mom”/fixer/”unofficial chief of staff to everyone that comes in contact with Schiff, keeps details of all events that Schiff attends. Our source confirmed, he has attended parties at Ed Buck’s home many times for special events, among other big names in California.
On Saturday, June 1, 2019, Buck’s home in West Hollywood was searched and items were seized. Our source says that on Monday, June 3, 2019, Schiff turned up to the D.C. office demanding that everyone find anything they could about “deepfake” videos.
He was very irate and seemed obsessed. He asked us to locate prominent experts that could debunk challenged videos as deepfakes and experts on video metadata. He was obsessed and demanded that we have reports and names with interviews set up almost instantly. He said, ‘You find an expert.’ Run every check you can on him-find everything- I want to know every skeleton they have.
Exclusive Democrat House staffer source
We were told by our sources that during the warrant execution at Ed Buck’s home (that was awarded without his presence), electronics such as phones, personal computers, tablets, and other hard drives were imaged in the seize. A warrant can be signed off by a judge allowing detectives to enter your home without you present and leave no trace they were there. It’s an undercover search warrant………….
In October 1944, at age eighteen, I was drafted into the U.S. army. Largely because of the “Battle of the Bulge,” my training was cut short, my furlough was halved, and I was sent overseas immediately. Upon arrival in Le Havre, France, we were quickly loaded into box cars and shipped to the front. When we got there, I was suffering increasingly severe symptoms of mononucleosis, and was sent to a hospital in Belgium. Since mononucleosis was then known as the “kissing disease,” I mailed a letter of thanks to my girlfriend.
By the time I left the hospital, the outfit I had trained with in Spartanburg, South Carolina, was deep inside Germany, so, despite my protests, I was placed in a “repo depot” (replacement depot). I lost interest in the units to which I was assigned, and don’t recall all of them: non-combat units were ridiculed at that time. My separation qualification record states I was mostly with Company C, 14th Infantry Regiment, during my seventeen-month stay in Germany, but I remember being transferred to other outfits also.
In late March or early April 1945, I was sent to guard a POW camp near Andernach along the Rhine. I had four years of high school German, so I was able to talk to the prisoners, although this was forbidden. Gradually, however, I was used as an interpreter and asked to ferret out members of the S.S. (I found none.)
In Andernach about 50,000 prisoners of all ages were held in an open field surrounded by barbed wire. The women were kept in a separate enclosure that I did not see until later. The men I guarded had no shelter and no blankets. Many had no coats. They slept in the mud, wet and cold, with inadequate slit trenches for excrement. It was a cold, wet spring, and their misery from exposure alone was evident.
Even more shocking was to see the prisoners throwing grass and weeds into a tin can containing a thin soup. They told me they did this to help ease their hunger pains. Quickly they grew emaciated. Dysentery raged, and soon they were sleeping in their own excrement, too weak and crowded to reach the slit trenches. Many were begging for food, sickening and dying before our eyes. We had ample food and supplies, but did nothing to help them, including no medical assistance.
Outraged, I protested to my officers and was met with hostility or bland indifference. When pressed, they explained they were under strict orders from “higher up.” No officer would dare do this to 50,000 men if he felt that it was “out of line,” leaving him open to charges. Realizing my protests were useless, I asked a friend working in the kitchen if he could slip me some extra food for the prisoners. He too said they were under strict orders to severely ration the prisoners’ food, and that these orders came from “higher up.” But he said they had more food than they knew what to do with, and would sneak me some.
When I threw this food over the barbed wire to the prisoners, I was caught and threatened with imprisonment. I repeated the “offense,” and one officer angrily threatened to shoot me. I assumed this was a bluff until I encountered a captain on a hill above the Rhine shooting down at a group of German civilian women with his .45 caliber pistol. When I asked, “Why?,” he mumbled, “Target practice,” and fired until his pistol was empty. I saw the women running for cover, but, at that distance, couldn’t tell if any had been hit.
This is when I realized I was dealing with cold-blooded killers filled with moralistic hatred. They considered the Germans subhuman and worthy of extermination; another expression of the downward spiral of racism. Articles in the G.I. newspaper, Stars and Stripes, played up the German concentration camps, complete with photos of emaciated bodies. This amplified our self-righteous cruelty, and made it easier to imitate behavior we were supposed to oppose. Also, I think, soldiers not exposed to combat were trying to prove how tough they were by taking it out on the prisoners and civilians.
These prisoners, I found out, were mostly farmers and workingmen, as simple and ignorant as many of our own troops. As time went on, more of them lapsed into a zombie-like state of listlessness, while others tried to escape in a demented or suicidal fashion, running through open fields in broad daylight towards the Rhine to quench their thirst. They were mowed down.
Some prisoners were as eager for cigarettes as for food, saying they took the edge off their hunger. Accordingly, enterprising G.I. “Yankee traders” were acquiring hordes of watches and rings in exchange for handfuls of cigarettes or less. When I began throwing cartons of cigarettes to the prisoners to ruin this trade, I was threatened by rank-and-file G.I.s too.
The only bright spot in this gloomy picture came one night when. I was put on the “graveyard shift,” from two to four a.m. Actually, there was a graveyard on the uphill side of this enclosure, not many yards away. My superiors had forgotten to give me a flashlight and I hadn’t bothered to ask for one, disgusted as I was with the whole situation by that time. It was a fairly bright night and I soon became aware of a prisoner crawling under the wires towards the graveyard. We were supposed to shoot escapees on sight, so I started to get up from the ground to warn him to get back. Suddenly I noticed another prisoner crawling from the graveyard back to the enclosure. They were risking their lives to get to the graveyard for something. I had to investigate.
When I entered the gloom of this shrubby, tree-shaded cemetery, I felt completely vulnerable, but somehow curiosity kept me moving. Despite my caution, I tripped over the legs of someone in a prone position. Whipping my rifle around while stumbling and trying to regain composure of mind and body, I soon was relieved I hadn’t reflexively fired. The figure sat up. Gradually, I could see the beautiful but terror-stricken face of a woman with a picnic basket nearby. German civilians were not allowed to feed, nor even come near the prisoners, so I quickly assured her I approved of what she was doing, not to be afraid, and that I would leave the graveyard to get out of the way.
I did so immediately and sat down, leaning against a tree at the edge of the cemetery to be inconspicuous and not frighten the prisoners. I imagined then, and still do now, what it would be like to meet a beautiful woman with a picnic basket under those conditions as a prisoner. I have never forgotten her face.
Eventually, more prisoners crawled back to the enclosure. I saw they were dragging food to their comrades, and could only admire their courage and devotion.
On May 8, V.E. Day , I decided to celebrate with some prisoners I was guarding who were baking bread the other prisoners occasionally received. This group had all the bread they could eat, and shared the jovial mood generated by the end of the war. We all thought we were going home soon, a pathetic hope on their part. We were in what was to become the French zone [of occupation], where I soon would witness the brutality of the French soldiers when we transferred our prisoners to them for their slave labor camps.
On this day, however, we were happy.
As a gesture of friendliness, I emptied my rifle and stood it in the corner, even allowing them to play with it at their request. This thoroughly “broke the ice,” and soon we were singing songs we taught each other, or that I had learned in high school German class (“Du, du, liegst mir im Herzen”). Out of gratitude, they baked me a special small loaf of sweet bread, the only possible present they had left to offer. I stuffed it in my “Eisenhower jacket,” and snuck it back to my barracks, eating it when I had privacy. I have never tasted more delicious bread, nor felt a deeper sense of communion while eating it. I believe a cosmic sense of Christ (the Oneness of all Being) revealed its normally hidden presence to me on that occasion, influencing my later decision to major in philosophy and religion.
Shortly afterwards, some of our weak and sickly prisoners were marched off by French soldiers to their camp. We were riding on a truck behind this column. Temporarily, it slowed down and dropped back, perhaps because the driver was as shocked as I was. Whenever a German prisoner staggered or dropped back, he was hit on the head with a club and killed. The bodies were rolled to the side of the road to be picked up by another truck. For many, this quick death might have been preferable to slow starvation in our “killing fields.” . . . . . . . . . .
Robert F. Kennedy, Jr. recently made a speech in Albany, New York at the epicenter of the measles madness. I have rarely heard the argument against our current vaccine program made any better. I’ll get out of the way and simply give you his brief talk in front of the state house.
The YouTube video of the speech has more than 100K views and is likely to climb much higher. Here is a transcript (edited for clarity). At the bottom we have the actual video for you to watch…
KENNEDY: Thank you for coming on such a rainy day. The pharmacist walked by and I don’t blame him for being angry because this is the biggest threat to their business plan. The vaccine industry when I was a boy was $270 million dollars. I got three vaccines and was fully compliant. Today it is a $50 billion dollar industry and 20% of pharmaceutical revenues.
But that’s at the front end.
At the back end are all the chronic diseases that the FDA says they think are associated with vaccines. A hundred and fifty diseases are now listed on the product inserts. The reason they’re listed on the product inserts is because the FDA has made the determination that these injuries are more likely caused by a vaccine.
This is the chronic disease epidemic.
I have six kids. I had eleven brothers and sisters. I had over fifty cousins. I didn’t know a single person with a peanut allergy. Why do all my kids have food allergies? Because they were born after 1989.
If you were born prior to 1989, your chance of having a chronic disease, according to HHS (Health and Human Services) is 12.8%. If you are born after 1989, your chance of having a chronic disease is 54%. And the FDA has said to the vaccine companies, you need to take a look at these diseases.
And what are these diseases?
They’re the neuro-developmental diseases, ADD, ADHD, language delays, speech delays, tics, Tourette Syndrome, ASD, and autism. The auto-immune disorders, Guillan-Barre, multiple sclerosis, juvenile diabetes, and rheumatoid arthritis. The anyphylactic diseases, food allergies, rhinitis, asthma, and eczema. All of these exploded in 1989.
Congress ordered the EPA (Environmental Protection Agency) to find out which year this disease epidemic started. And EPA did that study. They said it started in 1989. There are a lot of culprits. Many new things. We have cell-phones. We have PFOA (perfluorooctanic acid). We have ultra-sound. We have glyphosate. We have many other things. Our kids are swimming in a toxic soup.
We’re not saying all of those illnesses came from vaccines. But there is no intervention that is so exquisite and precisely timed as what happened when we went in 1989 and changed that vaccine schedule and raised the levels of aluminum and mercury, tripled and quintupled them. We went from the 3 vaccines that I had, to the 72 my kids had, and to the 75 that kids are going to get next year. And there are 273 new vaccines in the pipeline.
I went in and met with Adam Schiff. I’ve been a democrat all my life. What’s happening in the democratic party disturbs me greatly. But I was astonished when one of the leading democrats in our country, Adam Schiff, went to the internet titans, to Facebook, to Google, which has a $668 million dollar partnership with GlaxoSmithKline, the biggest vaccine maker in the world. They make drugs and mine your personal data so they can sell you more drugs. Schiff went to Pintrest, Facebook, Instagram, Amazon, all of them, and told them they need to start censoring information and complaints about a pharmaceutical product.
I said to Adam Schiff, “You know these are greedy companies. You know they’re homicidal.” Any democrat will tell you that. The four companies that produce all 72 vaccines that are mandated for American children, every one of them is a convicted felon. Since 2009, those four companies collectively have paid $35 billion dollars in criminal penalties and damages and fines for defrauding regulators, for falsifying science, for bribing doctors, for lying to the public, and for killing lots and lots of people.
Vioxx, a drug made by Merck, they knew it would cause heart attacks. They sold it as a headache pill. They didn’t tell people, you won’t have a headache, but you might have a heart attack.………………
*Below is some real truth about what happens to unsuspecting youngsters when joining the forces to fight for their country.
What if we repurposed the military and used the skills and service to build a better world where everyone has shelter, food and water? The armed forces have the resources and the man/woman power. What if these people came home with love and satisfaction in their hearts due to spending their time in the army HELPING people have a better life, rather than from killing and maiming, and being killed and maimed?!
As of this writing, the post has over 9,600 responses. Most of them are heartbreaking.
“My daughter was raped while in the army,” said one responder. “They
took her to the hospital where an all male staff tried to convince her
to give the guy a break because it would ruin his life. She persisted.
Wouldn’t back down. Did a tour in Iraq. Now suffers from PTSD.”
“I’ve had the same nightmare almost every night for the past 15 years,”said another.
Tweet after tweet after tweet, people used the opportunity that the
Army had inadvertently given them to describe how they or their loved one had been chewed up and spit out by a war machine that never cared about them.
This article exists solely to document a few of the things that have
been posted in that space, partly to help spread public awareness and
partly in case the thread gets deleted in the interests of “national
security”. Here’s a sampling in no particular order:
“Someone I loved joined right out of high school even though I
begged him not to. Few months after his deployment ended, we
reconnected. One night, he told me he loved me and then shot himself in
the head. If you’re gonna prey on kids for imperialism, at least treat
“After I came back from overseas I couldn’t go into large
crowds without a few beers in me. I have nerve damage in my right ear
that since I didn’t want to look weak after I came back I lied to the VA
rep. My dad was exposed to agent orange which destroyed his lungs,
heart, liver and pancreas and eventually killing him five years ago. He
was 49, exposed at a post not Vietnam, and will never meet my daughter
my nephew. I still drink to much and I crowds are ok most days but I
have to grocery shop at night and can’t work days because there is to
“The dad of my best friend when I was in high school had
served in the army. He struggled with untreated PTSD & severe
depression for 30 years, never told his family. Christmas eve of 2010,
he went to their shed to grab the presents & shot himself in the
head. That was the first funeral I attended where I was actually told
the cause of death & the reasons surrounding it. I went home from
the service, did some asking around, & found that most of the
funerals I’ve attended before have been caused by untreated health
issues from serving.”
“My dad was drafted into war and was exposed to agent orange.
I was born w multiple physical/neurological disabilities that are
linked back to that chemical. And my dad became an alcoholic with ptsd
and a side of bipolar disorder.”
“i met this guy named christian who served in iraq. he was
cool, had his own place with a pole in the living room. always had lit
parties. my best friend at the time started dating him so we spent a
weekend at his crib. after a party, 6am, he took out his laptop. he
started showing us some pics of his time in the army. pics with a bunch
of dudes. smiling, laughing. it was cool. i was drunk and didn’t care.
he started showing us pics of some little kids. after a while, his eyes
went completely fucking dark. i was like man, dude’s high af. he very
calmly explained to us that all of those kids were dead ‘but that’s what
war was. dead kids and nothing to show for it but a military discount’.
christian killed himself 2 months later.”
“I didn’t serve but my dad did. In Vietnam. It eventually
killed him, slowly, over a couple of decades. When the doctors were
trying to put in a pacemaker to maybe extend his life a couple of years,
his organs were so fucked from the Agent Orange, they disintegrated to
the touch. He died when I was ten. He never saw me graduate high school.
He never saw me get my first job or buy my first car. He wasn’t there.
But hey! Y’all finally paid out 30k after another vet took the VA to the
Supreme Court, so. You know. It was cool for him.”
“Chronic pain with a 0% disability rating (despite medical
discharge) so no benefits, and anger issues that I cope with by picking
fistfights with strangers.”
“My parents both served in the US Army and what they got was
PTSD for both of them along with anxiety issues. Whenever we go out in
public and sit down somewhere my dad has to have his back up against the
wall just to feel a measure of comfort that no one is going to sneak up
on him and kill him and and walking up behind either of them without
announcing that you’re there is most likely going to either get you
punch in the face or choked out.”
“Many of my friends served. All are on heavy
antidepressant/anxiety meds, can’t make it through 4th of July or NYE,
and have all dealt with heavy substance abuse problems before and after
discharge. And that’s on top of one crippled left hand, crushed
vertebra, and GSWs.”
“Left my talented and young brother a broken and disabled man
who barely leaves the house. Left my mother hypervigilant &
terrified due to the amount of sexual assault & rape covered up and
looked over by COs. Friend joined right out if HS, bullet left him
paralyzed neck down.”
“My cousin went to war twice and came back with a drug
addiction that killed him. My other cousin could never get paid on time
and when he left they tried to withhold his pay.”
“It’s given me a fractured spine, TBI, combat PTSD, burn pit
exposure, and a broken body with no hope of getting better. Not even
medically retired for a fractured spine. WTF.”
“Y’all killed my father by failing to provide proper treatments after multiple tours.”
“Everyone I know got free PTSD and chemical exposure and a
long engagement in their efforts to have the US pay up for college
tuition. Several lives ruined. No one came out better. Thank god my
recruiter got a DUI on his way to get me or I would be dead or worse
“I have ptsd and still wake up crying at night. Also have a
messed up leg that I probably will have to deal with the rest of my
life. Depression. Anger issues.”
“My grandfather came back from Vietnam with severe PTSD,
tried to drown it in alcohol, beat my father so badly and so often he
still flinches when touched 50 years later. And I grew up with an
emotionally scarred father with PTSD issues of his own because of it.
“Hmmm. Let’s see. I lost friends, have 38 inches of scars, PTSD and a janky arm and hand that don’t work.”
“my grandpa served in vietnam from when he was 18–25. he’s 70
now and every night he still has nightmares where he stands up tugging
at the curtains or banging on the walls screaming at the top of his
lungs for someone to help him. he refuses to talk about his time and
when you mention anything about the war to him his face goes white and
he has a panic attack. he cries almost every day and night and had to
spend 10 years in a psychiatric facility for suicidal ideations from
what he saw there.”
“My best friend joined the Army straight out of high school
because his family was poor & he wanted a college education. He
served his time & then some. Just as he was ready to retire he was
sent to Iraq. You guys sent him back in a box. It destroyed his
“Well, my father got deployed to Iraq and came back a
completely different person. Couldn’t even work the same job he had been
working 20 years before that because of his anxiety and PTSD. He had
nightmares, got easily violent and has terrible depression. But the army
just handed him pills, now he is 100% disabled and is on a shit ton of
medication. He has nightmares every night, paces the house barely
sleeping, checking every room just to make sure everyone’s safe. He’s
had multiple friends commit suicide.”
“Father’s a disabled Vietnam veteran who came home with
severe PTSD and raging alcoholism. VA has continuously ignored him
throughout the years and his medical needs and he receives very little
compensation for all he’s gone through. Thanks so much!!”
“I was #USNavy, my husband was #USArmy, he served in Bosnia
and Iraq and that nice, shy, funny guy was gone, replaced with a
withdrawn, angry man…he committed suicide a few years later…when I’m
thanked for my service, I just nod.”
“I’m permanently disabled because I trained through severe
pain after being rejected from the clinic for ‘malingering.’ Turns out
my pelvis was cracked and I ended up having to have hip surgery when I
was 20 years old.”
“My brother went into the Army a fairly normal person, became
a Ranger (Ft. Ord) & came out a sociopath. He spent the 1st 3 wks
home in his room in the dark, only coming out at night when he thought
we were asleep. He started doing crazy stuff. Haven’t seen him since
“Recently attended the funeral for a west point grad with a
4yr old and a 7yr old daughter because he blew his face off to escape
his ptsd but thats nothing new.”
“I don’t know anyone in my family who doesn’t suffer from
ptsd due to serving. One is signed off sick due to it & thinks
violence is ok. Another (navy) turned into a psycho & thought
domestic violence was the answer to his wife disobeying his orders.”
“My dad served during vietnam, but after losing close friends
and witnessing the killing of innocents by the U.S., he refused to
redeploy. He has suffered from PTSD ever since. The bravest thing he did
in the army was refuse to fight any longer, and I’m so proud of him for
“My best friend from high school was denied his mental health
treatment and forced to return to a third tour in Iraq, despite having
such deep trauma that he could barely function. He took a handful of
sleeping pills and shot himself in the head two weeks before deploying.”
“Bad back, hips, and knees. Lack of trust, especially when
coming forward about sexual harassment. Detachment, out of fear of
losing friends. Missed birthdays, weddings, graduations, and funerals. I
get a special license plate tho.”
“My son died 10 months ago. He did 3 overseas tours. He came back with severe mental illness.”
“I’m still in and I’m in constant pain and they recommended a
spinal fusion when I was 19. Y’all also won’t update my ERB so I can’t
use the education benefits I messed myself up for.”
“My dad served two tours in middle east and his personality
changes have affected my family forever. VA ‘counseling’ has a session
limit and doesn’t send you to actual psychologists. Military service
creates a mental health epidemic it is then woefully unequipped to deal
“My best childhood friend lost his mind after his time in the
marines and now he lives in a closet in his mons house and can barely
hold a conversation with anyone. He only smokes weed and drinks cough
syrup that he steals since he can’t hold a job.”
“After coming back from Afghanistan…..Matter fact I don’t
even want to talk about it. Just knw that my PTSD, bad back, headaches,
chronic pain, knee pain, and other things wishes I would have NEVER
signed that contract. It was NOT worth the pain I’ll endure for the rest
“My cousin served and came back only to be diagnosed with
schizophrenia and ptsd. There were nights that he would lock himself in
the bathroom and stay in the corner because he saw bodies in the
bathtub. While driving down the highway, he had another episode and
drove himself into a cement barrier, engulfing his Jeep in flames and
burning alive. My father served as well and would never once speak of
what he witnessed and had to do. He said it’s not something that any one
person should ever be proud of.”
“I was sexually assaulted by a service member at 17 when I
visited my sister on her base, then again at 18. My friend got hooked on
k2 and died after the va turned him away for mental health help.
Another friend serving was exploited sexually by her co and she was
blamed for it.”
“I spent ten years in the military. I worked 15 hour days to
make sure my troops were taken care of. In return for my hard work I was
rewarded with three military members raping me. I was never promoted to
a rank that made a difference. And I have an attempt at suicide. Fuck
“I actually didn’t get around to serving because I was
sexually assaulted by three of my classmates during a military academy
prep program. They went to the academies and are still active duty
officers. I flamed out of the program and have PTSD.”
“My father’s successful military career taught him that he’s
allowed to use violence to make people do what he wants because America
gave him that power.”
“While I was busy framing ‘soliders and families first’ (lol)
propaganda posters, my best friend went to ‘Iraqistan’ but he didn’t
come back. He returned alive, to be sure, but he was no longer the fun,
carefree, upbeat person he’d previously been.”
“My husband is a paraplegic and can’t control 3/4 of his body
now. Me, I’ve got PTSD, an anxiety disorder, two messed up knees,
depression, a bad back, tinnitus, and chronic insomnia. I wish both had
“This is one of the most heartbreaking threads I’ve ever read.”
“I am so sorry. The way we fail our service members hurts my
heart. My grandfather served in the Korean War and had nightmares until
his death at 91 years old. We must do better.”
“My Army story is that when I was in high school, recruiters
were there ALL the time- at lunch, clubs, etc.- targeting the poor kids
at school. I didn’t understand it until now. You chew people who have
nothing at home up and spit them out.”
“I was thinking about enlisting until I saw this thread. Hard pass.”
“I hope to god that the Army has enough guts to read these
and realize how badly our servicepeople are being treated. Thank you and
god bless you to all of you in this thread, and your loved ones who are